This ten-day challenge calls me wildly:

I've been noticeably silent here at Dreamwidth, and obviously fallible when it comes to meme challenges, but inspired by cygne, I’m going to do this — starting tonight, hopefully.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

(crosspost from my tumblr account)

Ten days [one]

When it comes to relationships --
And I don't mean just with girls
(I mean with everyone) --
Your illustrations always point out just what's wrong with me.
It's chapstick and chapped lips and things like chemistry.

[Relient K]

Ten things I want to say to ten different people right now:

1. You are probably the world’s most patient person, and I’m constantly amazed by your grace. Thank you for being in my life in a huge way, even when we can’t be in proximity to each other.
2. I wonder if you’ve ever really looked at your actions and tried to see how they come across. I can’t tell if you’re genuine and clueless, or if you’re simply a major player and merrily milking this for all it’s worth. Regardless, I want you to press the pause button and actually think about what this all means. You’re not fourteen anymore. Please be a man.
3. When I first met you, I felt that kindred spirit click, the one that says we are bound to get along. But three years have gone by and we keep narrowly missing each other, almost being friends but never quite getting there. I kind of don’t mind any more — obviously that’s just how it’s going to be. But it weirds me out that it’s like this and — what’s worse — it’s actually kind of awkward now. That’s not at all how I thought it would go.
4. What on earth have you been doing all this time?
5. Our friendship had the funniest beginning and — several years down the track — I still get surprised at the unexpected amazingness of it. Who knew that we would share so much in common and yet be so entertained by our differences? Who could have suspected that the nervous first meeting would so quickly fade into oblivion, replaced instead by serious girl-friendship, complete with deep reflections on life and faith, and far too many inappropriate remarks? I’m happy.
6. It’s hard for me to take you seriously when you sigh about not being married. I know about ten girls who could have been so right for you. But you seem to be looking for the Proverbs 31 woman Barbie, and I don’t think she exists.
7. I know I say it to you a lot, but I can’t properly express how restful it is to have known you all these years, to have had a history with you, to be able to be with you without explaining everything, to sit silently with you and not feel awkward. I appreciate that so much that I tend to gush about it. Sorry.
8. I wish I could challenge you about how much you hurt someone I care about, and I wish I could make sure you never do it again. Instead, when I see you, I have to pretend like nothing ever happened.
9. Why did you go back on everything you once preached? You seem to me to be a lot sadder than you ever were before. It’s like I can see the desperation underneath your frantic, whirling-dervish life.
10. Thank you for making motherhood seem like the excellent, rollicking adventure it really is. You make me want to have kids sooner rather than later.